A man can suffer from this as well: An Emotionally-Abusive Relationship! After a while it becomes so very toxic that you begin to entertain the possibility of ending it. But you don’t out of fear or guilt.
So, then the years go by and further they go by as your outlook in life begins to wither away. Your dreams die and all you can think about is retiring, then dying. Then, booooom! That’s it! Then, on the other side of things, your spouse or partner is the only one who shines. They grow and evolve whilst meeting other people in their evolution while you are left within their dust.
At the end of the day, you are the end result, defeated, derived from all the bullying of why you aren’t good enough, the little snark remarks of how you look (less than), the even more hurtful remarks in how other people and genders are even more attractive to her and vice-versa (her looking onto them) without taking into accountability nor consideration of how you (yourself) would feel when they do make such responses in return.
Just to know that your significant other finds it more of a thrill to shoot you down with every opportunity which gives them all the more comfort and satisfaction… is just plain debilitating, to say the least. Then, you continue to sacrifice more of yourself by making them more happy than yourself. The false pretense of making them happy with things is only merely that – just things. And you know you’ve done all your best, but when your best isn’t good enough, you are only weakened further to oblivion. Weakened. Yes, the cycle continues.
It brings back memories of defeat, indeed. It’s PTSD.
And all you desire is merely to be left alone.
Numb is the Word.
You don’t have to tell me what it means to be NUMB because you feel it everyday and it doesn’t go away.
Your candle burns out…
Then, Silence.

ABOUT THE AUTHOR:¬†Ayala Nunez is a Registered Nurse, specializing in Behavioral Health and Substance Abuse Recovery, and is a proud Veteran of the United States Air Force (Operation Desert Storm/Desert Shield). Ayala is also a conceptual quantum mechanic, a podcaster, author, an alternative thinker, controversial theorist, prolific writer and blogger, and a proponent for ancient archeology and parallel reality research. Additionally, Ayala is the host of many podcast radio talk shows, including Quantum Mindfulness Radio 2.0 and The Q-Anon Chronicles: Behind the Global Reset. Ayala Nunez is the Executive Producer and Founder of a prominent podcast radio network (created in 2015), called REAL REVOLUTION RADIO X.O: The Number #1 Source for Motivational Author Interviews, Intuitive Blog, and Inspirational Podcast Radio On-Demand. Within the World of Awakening, Ayala is also known for writing his quite jarring, but well-researched “Red Pill Blog Article”, entitled NESARA AND THE GLOBAL RESET, which explains much of what had occurred behind-the-scenes in 2020, a truly unforgettable year of TRUTH, CLARITY, & REVELATION! After experiencing a year of unparalleled coincidences and such profound synchronicity, many will reflect to look back and ask upon that question in a Post-Apocalyptic World: WHAT REALLY HAPPENED IN 2020

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