DO YOU REMEMBER ME?

“Do you remember me? In a rather ‘passive-aggressive’ racist society in the 1980’s, I’m the very same person who was abused, labeled, picked on, ridiculed, and PHYSICALLY AND EMOTIONALLY beaten down as a kid in Northeastern Ohio. Back then, unless you were black or white, it was never seen nor assessed as an issue of racism nor even an issue of seriousness, but unfortunately it was. In my eyes, this was my reality, living alone only within the cells of my own prison. To be forgotten was one thing, but to be ignored intentionally and many times unintentionally was another. But honestly, the purest hell (in my own eyes) would be to be forgotten… outright!
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Once again, noone saw this except for a select and hidden few who were kind enough to say… I SEE YOU. Beyond the depression, the loneliness, the heartache, and self-ridicule, I was able to see myself through. Yes, I was able to see ‘me’ when it came down right to it. Seriously, I wasn’t able to do so ’till just a few years ago in 2011. This was my personal awakening of sorts. Don’t really know how it utlimately became to be, but I did make it, after all them years. Just to look back, saddens me. He was a different person. At times, I wonder about that guy.
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Empathy becomes of it, entirely, when taken into consideration. But at the same time, the entirety of such an experience strengthens me beyond belief. For those who are experiencing the same plight, I say unto you, call upon your future self. Be open to your potentiality. Let him or her speak to you in such a way as if you, yourself, were courageously speaking to your ‘own-self’ from past lives lived, within this timeline and even from others from your other realms of what could have possibly been. Truly, as I become older in age and more wisdom-filled, everything seems very well-connected in essence. I am starting to realize that we do live at all-at-once from our past, present, and future lives spent.
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We do so in living our lives subconsciously through karma. But when we ultimately begin to acknowledge SELF in all aspects of what it means to be human within this timeline, we begin to see God in a Different Light. You cannot fathom nor see of your own LIGHT… unless (indeed) you have lived through your darkest night. This is when we are to truly begin to feel the LOVE of ‘His & Her’s’ Embrace. I believe… this is called HEAVEN. We must not forget that power we truly possess. We must acknowledge that Power in Consciousness when we finally become aware of SELF. And when we do so… we can openly HEAL. We can now be FREE.”
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ABOUT THE AUTHOR: Joel Ayala Ayapana is a Registered Nurse, specializing in Behavioral Health and Substance Abuse Recovery, and is a proud Veteran of the United States Air Force (Operation Desert Storm/Desert Shield). Joel is also an alternative thinker and a controversial theorist, prolific writer and blogger, an ancient archeology and cryptocurrency enthusiast, and the author of his critically-acclaimed memoir, entitled The Book of Positive Light: Remembrance of the Heart. He inquisitively hosts his own online “alternative” podcast radio talk show called Quantum Mindfulness Radio and the Great Awakening where he interviews New Age authors, theorists, researchers, experts and other enlightened enthusiasts within their field. Additionally, Joel is the Executive Producer and Founder of REAL REVOLUTION RADIO X.0: Downtown Cleveland’s Premiere “Alternative” Podcast Radio Network

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